ILETA YOTHANDO: ALLEN GINSBERG NOPETER ORLOVSKY
Imbongi yaseMelika kunye nombhali u-Allen Ginsberg kunye nembongi uPeter Orlovsky badibana eSan Francisco ngo-1954, beqalisa oko uGinsberg wayebiza ngokuba "ngumtshato" wabo - ubudlelwane obude obuye bahamba ngezigaba ezininzi, banyamezela imingeni emininzi, kodwa ekugqibeleni baqhubeka de wafa uGinsberg ngo-1997. .
Oonobumba babo, abazaliswe ngochwethezo, iziphumlisi ezingekhoyo, kunye nezinto ezingaqhelekanga zegrama zokubhala eziqhutywa kukugqabhuka kweemvakalelo ezinzulu endaweni yokuchaneka koncwadi, zintle ngokupheleleyo.
Kwileta esuka ngoJanuwari 20, 1958, uGinsberg ubhalela u-Orlovsky evela eParis, ebalisa ngotyelelo kunye nomhlobo wakhe osenyongweni kunye nomhlobo wakhe we-beatnik, uWilliam S. Burroughs, omnye umfanekiso we-subculture ye-gay yoncwadi:
"Othandekayo uPetey:
O Ntliziyo O Luthando yonke into ijike yaba yigolide ngequbuliso! Sukoyika ungakhathazeki eyona nto imangalisayo intle yenzekileyo apha! Andazi ukuba mandiqale ngaphi kodwa eyona ibalulekileyo. Xa uBill [ed: William S. Burroughs] weza mna, thina, sacinga ukuba kwakunguBill endala ephambene, kodwa kukho into eyenzekileyo kuBill ngelo xesha oko sagqibela ukumbona ... kodwa phezolo ekugqibeleni uBill kunye nam sahlala phantsi sajongana nomntu ngamnye. enye ngaphesheya kwetafile ekhitshini kwaye wajonga iliso kwiliso kwaye wathetha, kwaye ndavuma konke ukuthandabuza kwam kunye nosizi - kwaye phambi kwamehlo am wajika waba yiNgelosi!
Kwenzeka ntoni kuye eTangiers kwezi nyanga zimbalwa zidlulileyo? Kubonakala ngathi wayeka ukubhala kwaye wahlala ebhedini yakhe yonke iimvakwemini ecinga kwaye ecamngca yedwa kwaye wayeka ukusela - kwaye ekugqibeleni kwathi qatha engqondweni yakhe, ngokuthe ngcembe kwaye ngokuphindaphindiweyo, yonke imihla, kangangeenyanga ezininzi - ukuqonda "ngeziko elinobubele (imvakalelo) kwindawo Indalo yonke ”- ngokucacileyo wayenayo, ngendlela yakhe, into endiyixhome kakhulu kum nakuwe, umbono weLovebrain enkulu enoxolo.
Ndivuke kusasanje ndinovuyo olukhulu lwenkululeko novuyo entliziyweni yam, Bill usindisiwe, ndisindisiwe, usindisiwe, sonke sisindisiwe, yonke into ibiyi rapturous ukususela ngoko — ndiva kabuhlungu ukuba mhlawumbi sashiyeka sinexhala xa sasivalelisa kwaye saphuzana ngokungathandekiyo - ndinqwenela ukuba bendinokuba nako ukuvalelisa kuwe ngokonwaba ngakumbi kwaye ngaphandle kwamaxhala kunye namathandabuzo bendinorhatya lothuli xa uhamba… - UBill utshintshile indalo, ndiziva kakhulu itshintshile, amafu amakhulu aqengqeleka, njengoko ndiziva xa mna nawe sasisondelelene, ke, ubudlelwane bethu wahlala kum, kunye nam, kunokuba ndiphulukane nayo, ndivakalelwa kuye wonke umntu, into efanayo naphakathi kwethu. "
Kwiiveki ezimbalwa kamva, ekuqaleni kukaFebruwari, u-Orlovsky wathumela ileta eGinsberg evela eNew York, apho wabhala khona ngobuchule obuhle:
Ungakhathazeki sithandwa sika-Allen izinto zihamba kakuhle - siza kulitshintsha ihlabathi ngoku sinqwenela - nokuba sinokufa - kodwa OH umhlaba unemvula engama-25 kwifestile yam ... "
Kamsinya nje akuba efumene ileta kusuku olusemva koSuku lweValentine, uGinsberg uyaphendula, ecaphula uShakespeare njengembongi echukunyiswe luthando kuphela:
"Bendibaleka ndijikeleza neembongi eziphambeneyo kunye nabatya behlabathi apha kwaye bendilangazelela amazwi obubele avela ezulwini owabhalileyo, afika amatsha njengempepho yasehlotyeni kwaye" xa ndicinga ngawe sihlobo esithandekayo / konke okulahlekileyo kuyabuyiselwa kunye neentsizi. ekupheleni,” yeza kwaye yaza engqondweni yam - sisiphelo sikaShakespeare Sonnet - kufuneka ukuba wonwabile eluthandweni naye. Ndandingazange ndiyiqonde loo nto ngaphambili. . . .Ndibhalele mntanam kungekudala, ndiza kukubhalela umbongo omkhulu omde endivakalelwa kukuba unguthixo endithandaza kuye—Love, Allen”
Kwenye ileta eyathunyelwa kwiintsuku ezisithoba kamva, uGinsberg ubhala athi:
"Ndiyenza kakuhle apha, kodwa ndiyakukhumbula, iingalo zakho kunye nobuze bakho kunye nokubambana-ubomi bubonakala bungenasiphelo ngaphandle kwakho, ukufudumala komphefumlo abukho ..."
Ecaphula enye incoko awayenayo noBurroughs, uqhubeleka echaza umtsi omkhulu wesidima kunye nokulingana kothando esithe sakubona ngaphezu kwesiqingatha senkulungwane emva kokuba uGinsberg ebhale oku:
“UBill ucinga ukuba isizukulwana esitsha saseMelika siya kuba sisinqe kwaye siya kutshintsha kancinci izinto-imithetho kunye nezimo zengqondo, unethemba apho-lokukhululwa kweMelika, ukufumana umphefumlo wayo. . . . Kuya kufuneka uthande bonke ubomi, hayi nje iinxalenye, ukwenza umboniso wanaphakade, yile nto ndiyicingayo ukusukela oko siyenzile, ngakumbi nangakumbi ndiyabona ukuba ayikho phakathi kwethu, yimvakalelo enokwandiswa. kuyo yonke into. Thoko ndirhalela uqhagamshelo lwelanga lokwenyani phakathi kwethu ndiyakukhumbula njengekhaya. Shine back honey & ucinge ngam.
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Sala kakuhle Mnu. February.
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