KALATA YACHIKONDI: ELEANOR ROOSEVELT NDI LORENA HICKOK
Eleanor Roosevelt sapirira kokha ngati Mayi Woyamba wa ku America yemwe wakhala nthawi yayitali kwambiri, komanso ngati mmodzi mwa anthu omwe adakhudzidwa kwambiri ndi ndale, ngwazi yankhanza ya amayi ogwira ntchito komanso achinyamata ovutika. Koma moyo wake waumwini wakhala nkhani ya mikangano yosatha.
M'chilimwe cha 1928, Roosevelt anakumana ndi mtolankhani Lorena Hickok, amene ankabwera kumutchula kuti Hick. Ubale wazaka makumi atatu womwe udachitika wakhalabe nkhani yongopeka kwambiri, kuyambira madzulo a kukhazikitsidwa kwa FDR, pomwe Mkazi Woyamba adawoneka atavala safiro. mphete Hickok anali atamupatsa iye, kuti atsegule makalata ake achinsinsi mu 1998. Ngakhale makalata omveka bwino kwambiri anali atawotchedwa, 300 yofalitsidwa mu Empty Without You: The Intimate Letters Of Eleanor Roosevelt And Lorena Hickok (laibulale ya anthu onse) - nthawi yomweyo mosakayikira kusiyana ndi makalata owulula kwambiri a mbiri ya akazi ndi akazi komanso opatsa chidwi kuposa omwe anali mabwenzi apamtima aakazi - zikuwonetsa kuti ubale wa Roosevelt ndi Hickok udali wachikondi kwambiri.
Pa March 5, 1933, madzulo oyambirira a kukhazikitsidwa kwa FDR, Roosevelt analemba Hick:
"Hick wokondedwa wanga -Sindingathe kugona usikuuno popanda mawu kwa inu. Ndinamva pang'ono ngati kuti gawo lina la ine likuchoka usikuuno. Mwakula kwambiri kukhala mbali ya moyo wanga moti ndilibe kanthu popanda inu.”
Kenako, tsiku lotsatira:
“Hick, darling. Aa, zinali zabwino chotani nanga kumva mawu anu. Zinali zosakwanira kuyesa ndikukuuzani zomwe zikutanthauza. Choseketsa chinali chakuti sindikanatha kunena kuti ndikukonda monga momwe ndimafunira, koma nthawi zonse muzikumbukira kuti ndikunena, kuti ndimagona ndikuganizirani. "
Ndipo usiku pambuyo pake:
"Hick darling, tsiku lonse ndimaganizira za iwe & tsiku lina lobadwa ndidzakhala nawe, komabe unkamveka kuti uli kutali kwambiri. O! Ndikufuna kukukumbatirani, ndikumva kuwawa kukugwirani pafupi. mphete yanu ndi chitonthozo chachikulu. Ndiziyang'ana ndikuganiza "amandikonda, kapena sindikanavala!"
Ndipo m'kalata inanso:
"Ndikanakonda ndikanagona pafupi ndi iwe usikuuno ndikukunyamula m'manja mwanga."
Hick adayankha mwamphamvu chimodzimodzi. M’kalata yochokera mu December 1933, analemba kuti:
"Ndakhala ndikuyesera kubweretsanso nkhope yanu - kuti mukumbukire momwe mumawonekera. Zoseketsa kuti ngakhale nkhope yokondedwa kwambiri idzazimiririka pakapita nthawi. Ndimakumbukira bwino kwambiri maso anu, ndikumwetulira mwachipongwe, komanso kumverera kwa malo ofewa kumpoto chakum'mawa kwa ngodya yapakamwa panu pamilomo yanga. "
Zoonadi, machitidwe aumunthu ndi ovuta komanso osamvetsetseka mokwanira ngakhale kwa iwo omwe akukhudzidwa mwachindunji, zomwe zimapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kuganiza chilichonse motsimikiza kuchokera kumbali ya ubale wa epistolary patapita nthawi yaitali pambuyo pa imfa ya olemba. Koma paliponse pamawonekedwe a platonic ndi achikondi zilembo za Empty Without You zingagwere, zimapereka mbiri yabwino ya ubale wachikondi, wokhazikika, wachikondi pakati pa azimayi awiri omwe amatanthawuza dziko kwa wina ndi mnzake, ngakhale dziko silinakhalepo. kuvomereza kapena kumvetsetsa kulumikizana kwawo kwakukulu.
Eleanor kwa Lorena, February 4, 1934:
"Ndimaopa ulendo wakumadzulo koma ndidzakhala wokondwa Ellie akakhala nanu, ngakhale" ndichita mantha pang'ono, koma ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kuyanjana pang'onopang'ono ndi zakale komanso ndi anzanu. kotero sipadzakhala zitseko zotsekera pakati pathu pambuyo pake & zina mwa izi tizichita chilimwechi mwina. Ndidzamva kuti muli kutali kwambiri & izi zimandipangitsa kukhala wosungulumwa koma ngati muli okondwa ndikhoza kupirira & kukhala osangalala. Chikondi ndi chinthu chachilendo, chowawa koma chimapatsa munthu zochulukirapo! ”
"Ellie" Eleanor amatanthauza Ellie Morse Dickinson, wakale wa Hick. Hick anakumana ndi Ellie mu 1918. Ellie anali ndi zaka zingapo ndipo anali wochokera ku banja lolemera. Anali m'bale wa Wellesley yemwe adachoka ku koleji kukagwira ntchito Minneapolis Tribune, komwe adakumana ndi Hick, yemwe adamupatsa dzina loti "Hickey Doodles". Anakhala limodzi kwa zaka zisanu ndi zitatu m’chipinda chogona chimodzi. M'kalatayi, Eleanor akuzizira kwambiri (kapena akudzinamizira) ponena kuti Lorena anali atanyamuka kupita kugombe lakumadzulo komwe amakakhala ndi Ellie. Koma amavomereza kuti amamuopanso. Ndikudziwa kuti akugwiritsa ntchito mawu oti “queer” apa mwachikale kwambiri—kutanthauza zachilendo.
Eleanor kwa Lorena, February 12, 1934:
"Ndimakukondani kwambiri komanso mwachikondi ndipo zikhala zosangalatsa kukhalanso limodzi, sabata yatha tsopano. Sindingakuuzeni kuti miniti iliyonse ndi yamtengo wapatali bwanji ndi inu mumawonekera poyang'ana kumbuyo komanso mwachiyembekezo. Ndimakuyang'anani nthawi yonse yomwe ndimalemba - chithunzichi chimakhala ndi mawu omwe ndimakukondani, ofewa komanso okoma pang'ono koma kenako ndimakonda mawu aliwonse. Akudalitseni inu wokondedwa. Dziko lachikondi, ER”
Eleanor anamaliza makalata ake ambiri ndi "dziko lachikondi." Zosaina zina zomwe adagwiritsa ntchito ndi izi: "zanu nthawi zonse," "modzipereka," "zanu zonse," "wokondedwa wanga, ndimakukondani," "dziko lachikondi kwa inu & usiku wabwino & Mulungu akudalitseni 'kuwala kwa moyo wanga. ,'” “kudalitseni & khalani bwino & kumbukirani ndimakukondani,” “malingaliro anga amakhala ndi inu nthawi zonse,” ndi “kupsopsonani kwa inu.” Ndipo pano alinso, akulemba za chithunzi cha Hick chomwe chimamuthandiza koma osakwanira kuima kwa Lorena.
"Hick darling, ndikukhulupirira kuti zimakuvutani kukusiyani nthawi iliyonse, koma ndichifukwa choti mumayandikira. Zikuwoneka ngati muli pafupi ndi ine, koma ngakhale titakhala limodzi timayenera kupatukana nthawi zina & pakali pano zomwe mumachita ndizofunika kwambiri kudziko kotero kuti sitiyenera kudandaula, izi sizikundipanga ine. kukusowa kapena kusungulumwa kwambiri!"
Lorena kwa Eleanor, December 27, 1940:
"Zikomonso, wokondedwa, pazabwino zonse zomwe umaganiza ndi kuchita. Ndipo ndimakukondani kuposa momwe ndimakondera wina aliyense padziko lapansi kupatula Prinz—yemwe, mwa njira, anapeza mphatso yanu kwa iye pampando wazenera mu laibulale Lamlungu.”
Ngakhale kuti anapitirizabe kukulirakulirana—makamaka pamene nkhondo yachiŵiri yapadziko lonse inayamba, kukakamiza Eleanor kuthera nthaŵi yochuluka pa utsogoleri ndi ndale ndi nthaŵi yochepa pa moyo wake—Hick ndi Eleanor ankalemberanabe makalata wina ndi mnzake ndikutumizirana mphatso za Khrisimasi. Prinz, mwa njira, ndi galu wa Hick, yemwe ankamukonda ngati mwana. Eleanor amamukonda kwambiri kuti amugulirenso mphatso.
Lorena kwa Eleanor, October 8, 1941:
"Ndikutanthauza zomwe ndinanena muwaya womwe ndakutumizirani lero - ndimakunyadirani chaka chilichonse. Sindikudziwa mkazi wina amene angaphunzire kuchita zinthu zambiri pambuyo pa 50 ndikuzichita bwino monga iwe, Chikondi. Ndiwe wabwino kwambiri kuposa momwe ukudziwira, wokondedwa wanga. Tsiku lobadwa lachimwemwe, wokondedwa, ndipo udakali munthu amene ndimakukonda kwambiri kuposa wina aliyense padziko lapansi. "
Ngati Hick ndi Eleanor adaswekadi panthawiyi, akukwaniritsa malingaliro a amuna kapena akazi okhaokha omwe amangokhalira kugwiriridwa. Mu 1942, Hick anayamba kuonana ndi Marion Harron, woweruza wa Khoti la Misonkho ku United States yemwe anali wamng'ono kwa iye ndi zaka khumi. Makalata awo anapitiriza, koma zambiri za chikondi zinali zitapita ndipo anayamba kumveka ngati mabwenzi akale.
Eleanor kupita ku Lorena, Ogasiti 9, 1955:
"Hick wokondedwa, Zachidziwikire mudzayiwala nthawi zachisoni kumapeto ndipo pamapeto pake mudzangoganizira zokumbukira zabwino zokha. Moyo ndi wotero, ndipo zokhumba zake ziyenera kuyiwalika.”
Hick anathetsa ubale wake ndi Marion miyezi ingapo FDR itamwalira, koma ubale wake ndi Eleanor sunabwerere ku zomwe zinali. Matenda a Hick anapitirizabe kuwonjezereka, ndipo ankavutikanso ndi ndalama. Pofika nthawi ya kalatayi, Hick ankangokhalira kudalira ndalama ndi zovala zomwe Eleanor anamutumizira. Eleanor pamapeto pake adasamutsa Hick ku kanyumba kake ku Val-Kill. Ngakhale pali makalata ena omwe adasinthana nawo mpaka kufa kwa Eleanor mu 1962, izi zimamveka ngati gawo loyenera kutha. Ngakhale mu nthawi yamdima kwa onse awiri, Eleanor adakhalabe wowala komanso wa chiyembekezo momwe adalembera za moyo wawo limodzi. Palibe amene angafune kugawana naye wokondedwa Eleanor ndi anthu aku America ndikusindikiza, Hick adasankha kusapita kumaliro a First Lady. Anasazika kudziko lawo lachikondi payekha.
Siyani Mumakonda