INCWADI YOTHANDO: EDNA ST. U-VINCENT MILLY NO-EDITH WYNN MATTHISON
Ngo-1917, phakathi nonyaka wakhe wokugcina eVassar College - ayengene kuyo eneminyaka engu-21 evuthwe ngendlela engavamile futhi lapho acishe waxoshwa khona ngenxa yephathi kakhulu - u-Edna St. Vincent Millay wahlangana futhi waba umngane nomlingisi wefilimu waseBrithani ongakhulumi u-Edith Wynne Matthison, iminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu ngaphezu kwakhe. Kuthathwe ngomoya onolaka ka-Matthison, ubuhle obubabazekayo, nesitayela esihle, ukukhanga kuka-Millay kuka-platonic ngokushesha kwagqama kwaba ukuthatheka okukhulu kwezothando. U-Edith, owesifazane ongazange axolise ngokujabulela injabulo yokuphila, wagcina enga u-Edna futhi wamemela emzini wakhe osehlobo. Kwalandela uchungechunge lwezinhlamvu ezibonisa uthando oluyehlisa izikhali. Kutholwe ku-The Letters of Edna St. Vincent Milllay (umtapo wolwazi womphakathi) - okuphinde kwasinika uMillay othandweni lwakhe lomculo kanye nesithombe sakhe esingcolile esidlalayo - lezi zifiso ze-epistolary zithwebula leyo nhlanganisela eyinqaba yentshiseko ekhangayo kanye nokuzigqaja okukhubazayo okujwayelekile kunoma ubani uke waba sothandweni.
Ebhalela u-Edith, u-Edna uxwayisa ngokungagunci kwakhe:
“Lalelani; uma ezincwadini engizibhalela wena, noma engxoxweni yami, ubona ukukhuluma okusobala okubonakala kuluhlaza, - ngicela wazi ukuthi yingoba uma ngicabanga ngawe ngicabanga ngezinto zangempela, futhi ngithembeke, - futhi ukuphixana nokweqa kubukeka sengathi engacabangeki kakhulu.”
Kokunye, uyancenga:
“Ngizokwenza noma yini othi ngiyenze. … Ngicela ungithande; Ngiyakuthanda. Ngiyakwazi ukubekezelela ukuba umngane wakho. Ngakho cela kimi noma yini. … Kodwa ungalokothi 'ubekezele,' noma 'ube nomusa.' Futhi ungaphinde uthi kimi — ungalinge uphinde uthi kimi — 'Noma kunjalo, ungenza isilingo' sokuba umngane nawe! Ngoba angikwazi ukwenza izinto ngaleyo ndlela. ... Ngiyaqaphela kuphela ukwenza into engiyithandayo - okufanele ngiyenze - futhi kufanele ngibe umngane wakho."
Kwenye futhi, uMillay ubeka ngokucacile “ukuzinikela ngokuziqhenya” enhliziyweni yakho konke ukuthatheka okwenyama kanye nazo zonke izimangaliso “zothando lwangempela, oluqotho, oluphelele”:
“Ungibhalele incwadi enhle, — ngiyazibuza ukuthi ubuqonde ukuthi ibe yinhle yini njengoba ibinjalo. - Ngicabanga ukuthi ukwenzile; ngoba ngandlela thize ngiyazi ukuthi imizwa yakho ngami, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi incane kangakanani, ingeyothando. … akukho okwenzekile kimi isikhathi eside okungijabulisile njengoba ngizokuvakashela ngesinye isikhathi. - Akumelwe ukhohlwe ukuthi ukhulume ngalokho, - ngoba kungangidumaza ngonya. … Ngizozama ukuletha izinto ezimbalwa ezinhle kanye nami; Ngizohlanganisa konke engingakwenza, bese kuthi-ke uma ungitshela ukuthi ngize, ngizoza, ngesitimela esilandelayo, njengoba nginjalo. Lokhu akubona ubumnene, qiniseka; angizi ngokwemvelo ngobumnene; yazini ukuthi kungukuzinikela kini ngokuziqhenya; Angikhulumi kanjalo kubantu abaningi.
Ngothando,
Vincent Millay”
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