INCWADI YOTHANDO: U-ELEANOR ROOSEVELT NO-LORENA HICKOK
U-Eleanor Roosevelt akagcini nje ngokubekezelela njengeNkosikazi Yokuqala yaseMelika esebenze isikhathi eside kunabo bonke, kodwa futhi njengomunye wababe nomthelela omkhulu kwezombusazwe emlandweni, ongumpetha onolaka wabesifazane abasebenzayo kanye nentsha entulayo. Kodwa ukuphila kwakhe siqu kuye kwaba yimpikiswano ehlala njalo.
Ehlobo lika-1928, u-Roosevelt wahlangana nentatheli u-Lorena Hickok, ayezombiza ngokuthi u-Hick. Ubudlelwano beminyaka engamashumi amathathu obabukhona buye bulokhu bungundabamlonyeni, kusukela ngobusuku bokugcotshwa kwe-FDR, lapho uNkosikazi Wokuqala ebonakala egqoke isafire. ring U-Hickok wayemnikeze yena, ekuvulweni kwezincwadi zakhe eziyimfihlo ngo-1998. Nakuba izincwadi eziningi ezicacile kakhulu zazishisiwe, ezingu-300 ezishicilelwe kwethi Empty Without You: The Intimate Letters Of Eleanor Roosevelt And Lorena Hickok (umtapo wolwazi womphakathi) — ngaso leso sikhathi ngokungananazi kunezincwadi zothando eziveza owesifazane nomuntu wesifazane emlandweni futhi eziyela ngasocansini kunalezo zobungani abakhulu besifazane bakaplatonic - kukhombisa ngokuqinile ubudlelwano phakathi kuka-Roosevelt no-Hickok bebubobunye obunamandla othando.
Ngo-March 5, 1933, ngobusuku bokuqala bokuvulwa kwe-FDR, u-Roosevelt wabhala u-Hick:
"Hick sithandwa sami -Angeke ngikwazi ukulala namhlanje ebusuku ngingakhulumanga lutho kuwe. Ngizwe kancane sengathi ingxenye yami iyahamba namhlanje ebusuku. Ukhule kakhulu usuyingxenye yempilo yami kangangokuthi ayinalutho ngaphandle kwakho.”
Khona-ke, ngosuku olulandelayo:
“Hick, sithandwa. Ah, bekukuhle kanjani ukuzwa izwi lakho. Bekungenele kakhulu ukuzama ukukutshela ukuthi kwakusho ukuthini. Okuhlekisayo kwakuwukuthi ngangingakwazi ukusho ukuthi ngiyathanda futhi ngiyathanda njengoba ngangilangazelela, kodwa khumbula njalo ukuthi ngiyakusho, ukuthi ngilala ngicabanga ngawe.”
Futhi ngobusuku obulandelayo:
“Hick sithandwa, usuku lonke ngicabanga ngawe nangolunye usuku lokuzalwa ngizoba nawe, kodwa uzwakale ukude futhi uhlelekile. O! Ngifuna ukukubamba ngezandla, ngibuhlungu ukukubamba eduze. Indandatho yakho iyinduduzo enkulu. Ngiyayibuka bese ngicabanga ukuthi “uyangithanda, noma bengingeke ngiyigqoke!”
Futhi kwenye futhi incwadi:
"Ngifisa sengathi ngingalala eduze kwakho namhlanje ebusuku futhi ngikubambe ezingalweni zami."
U-Hick ngokwakhe waphendula ngokuqina okufanayo. Encwadini ka-December 1933, wabhala:
“Bengizama ukubuyisa ubuso bakho — ukuze ngikhumbule indlela obukeka ngayo. Kuyahlekisa ukuthi ngisho nobuso obuthandeka kakhulu buzophela kanjani ngokuhamba kwesikhathi. Ngokucace kakhulu ngikhumbula amehlo akho, ngohlobo lokumomotheka kokugcona kuwo, nomuzwa waleyo ndawo ethambile esenyakatho-mpumalanga yekhona lomlomo wakho ezindebeni zami. "
Kuyavunywa, ukuguquguquka komuntu kuyinkimbinkimbi futhi akucaci ngokwanele ngisho nakulabo abathintekayo ngokuqondile, okwenza kube nzima ukuthatha noma yini ngokuqiniseka okuphelele eceleni kobudlelwane be-epistolary kudala ngemva kokufa kwababhali. Kodwa noma yikuphi lapho kuningi khona izinhlamvu ze-platonic nezothando ezithi Empty Without You zingase ziwe, zinikeza irekhodi elihle lobudlelwane obumnene, obuqinile, obunothando obujulile phakathi kwabesifazane ababili ababeqonde umhlaba komunye nomunye, ngisho noma umhlaba ungakaze ubonakale. wavumela noma waqonda ukuxhumana kwabo okujulile.
U-Eleanor uya ku-Lorena, ngoFebhuwari 4, 1934:
“Ngiyalwesaba uhambo lwasentshonalanga futhi nokho ngizojabula uma u-Ellie engaba nawe, noma ngizokwesaba lokho kancane, kodwa ngiyazi ukuthi kufanele ngivumelane kancane kancane nenkathi yakho edlule nabangane bakho. ngakho-ke ngeke kube neminyango evaliwe phakathi kwethu ngokuhamba kwesikhathi futhi okunye kwalokhu sizokwenza kuleli hlobo mhlawumbe. Ngizokuzwa ukude kakhulu futhi lokho kungenza ngibe nesizungu kodwa uma ujabule ngingakubekezelela lokho futhi ngijabule futhi. Uthando luyinto engavamile, lubuhlungu kodwa lunikeza umuntu okuningi kakhulu njengembuyiselo!"
U-“Ellie” u-Eleanor abhekise kuye ngu-Ellie Morse Dickinson, owayekade engu-Hick. U-Hick wahlangana no-Ellie ngo-1918. U-Ellie wayeneminyaka embalwa ubudala futhi evela emndenini ocebile. Wayengu-Wellesley owashiya esikoleni, owashiya ekolishi waya emsebenzini I-Minneapolis Tribune, lapho ahlangana khona no-Hick, amnike isiteketiso esineshwa "I-Hickey Doodles." Bahlala ndawonye iminyaka eyisishiyagalombili efulethini elinekamelo elilodwa. Kule ncwadi, u-Eleanor ugodola ngendlela emangalisayo (noma okungenani uzenza yena) mayelana neqiniso lokuthi u-Lorena maduzane wayesethatha uhambo oluya ogwini olusentshonalanga lapho ayezochitha khona isikhathi no-Ellie. Kodwa uyavuma ukuthi uyesaba futhi. Ngiyazi ukuthi usebenzisa elithi “queer” lapha ngendlela yakudala—ukubonisa okungavamile.
U-Eleanor uya ku-Lorena, ngoFebhuwari 12, 1934:
“Sithandwa sami ngikuthanda ngokujulile nangokumnene futhi kuzoba intokozo ukuba ndawonye futhi, isonto nje manje. Angikwazi ukukutshela ukuthi umzuzu nomzuzu ubonakala uyigugu kangakanani kuwe ngokubheka emuva nangethemba. Ngikubuka isikhathi eside njengoba ngibhala—isithombe sinenkulumo engiyithandayo, ethambile futhi ehlekisayo kodwa bese ngithanda yonke inkulumo. Akubusise sithandwa. Umhlaba wothando, ER”
U-Eleanor waphetha izincwadi zakhe eziningi “ngomhlaba wothando.” Okunye ukusayina akusebenzisa kwakuhlanganisa: “ngokwakho njalo,” “ngokuzinikela,” “owakho njalo,” “sithandwa sami, ngiyakuthanda,” “umhlaba wothando kuwe nobusuku obuhle futhi uNkulunkulu akubusise ‘ukukhanya kwempilo yami ,'” “ukubusisa futhi uhlale kahle futhi ukhumbule ukuthi ngiyakuthanda,” “imicabango yami ihlezi inawe,” kanye “nokuqabula kuwe.” Futhi nangu futhi, ebhala ngaleso sithombe sika-Hick esisebenza njengesisekelo sakhe kodwa esinganele ngokwanele sokuma ku-Lorena.
“Hick sithandwa, ngikholwa ukuthi kuba nzima ukukukhulula isikhathi ngasinye, kodwa lokho kungenxa yokuthi uyasondelana. Kubukeka sengathi useduze kwami, kepha noma besihlala sobabili bekuzodingeka sihlukane ngezinye izikhathi futhi manje okwenzayo kubaluleke kakhulu ezweni kangangokuthi akufanele sikhononde, kuphela lokho akungenzi. ngikukhumbule kancane noma uzizwa unesizungu esincane!”
U-Lorena waya ku-Eleanor, ngoDisemba 27, 1940:
“Ngiyabonga futhi, sithandwa, ngazo zonke izinto ezimnandi ozicabangayo nozenzayo. Futhi ngikuthanda ngaphezu kwanoma ubani omunye emhlabeni ngaphandle kukaPrinz—okuthe, ngendlela, wathola isipho sakho kuye esihlalweni sefasitela emtatsheni wezincwadi ngeSonto.”
Nakuba baqhubeka nokuhlukana—ikakhulukazi njengoba kwaqala iMpi Yezwe II, kwaphoqa u-Eleanor ukuba achithe isikhathi esiningi ebuholini nakwezombangazwe futhi achithe isikhathi esincane ekuphileni kwakhe siqu—u-Hick no-Eleanor babesabhalelana futhi bathumelelana izipho zikaKhisimusi. Nokho, uPrinz uyinja kaHick, ayeyithanda njengengane. U-Eleanor wayemthanda ngokwanele ukuba amthengele isipho, naye.
U-Lorena waya ku-Eleanor, ngo-Okthoba 8, 1941:
“Bengiqonde lokho engikushilo ocingweni enginithumele lona namuhla—ngiyaziqhenya ngani unyaka nonyaka. Angazi omunye wesifazane ongafunda ukwenza izinto eziningi kangaka ngemva kweminyaka engama-50 futhi azenze kahle njengawe, Love. Ungcono kakhulu kunalokho okubonayo, sithandwa sami. Usuku lokuzalwa oluhle, sithandwa, futhi usengumuntu engimthanda ngaphezu kwanoma ubani omunye emhlabeni. "
Uma ngabe u-Hick no-Eleanor bebehlukene ngempela ngalesi sikhathi, baqinisekisa ukuthi bagcwalisa inkolelo yabantu abathandana nobulili obufanayo ababambelele kuma-ex abo. Ngo-1942, u-Hick waqala ukubonana noMarion Harron, ijaji leNkantolo Yentela yase-US elimncane ngeminyaka eyishumi kunaye. Zaqhubeka izincwadi zabo, kodwa uthando lwalungasekho futhi baqala ukuzwakala njengabangane bakudala.
U-Eleanor waya ku-Lorena, ngo-Agasti 9, 1955:
“Hick sithandwa, Impela uzozikhohlwa izikhathi ezidabukisayo ekugcineni futhi ekugcineni ucabange ngezinkumbulo ezimnandi kuphela. Impilo injalo, kunezinjongo okufanele zilibaleke.”
U-Hick waqeda ubuhlobo bakhe noMarion ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ngemva kokufa kwe-FDR, kodwa ubuhlobo bakhe no-Eleanor abuzange bubuyele kulokho okwakuyikho. Izinkinga zempilo eziqhubekayo zikaHick zaba zimbi nakakhulu, futhi wayedonsa kanzima ngokwezimali. Ngesikhathi sale ncwadi, u-Hick wayephila ngemali nezimpahla zokugqoka u-Eleanor azithunyelelwa yona. Ekugcineni u-Eleanor wathutha u-Hick endlini yakhe encane e-Val-Kill. Nakuba kunezinye izincwadi abashintshana ngazo eziholela ekufeni kuka-Eleanor ngo-1962, lokhu kuzwakala njengengcaphuno elungile okufanele kuphele ngayo. Noma bebhekene nezikhathi ezimnyama kubo bobabili, u-Eleanor wahlala egqamile futhi enethemba ngendlela abhala ngayo ngempilo yabo ndawonye. Akekho ofuna ukwabelana no-Eleanor amthandayo nomphakathi waseMelika bese ecindezela, u-Hick ukhethe ukungayi emngcwabeni weNkosazana Yokuqala. Wavalelisa emhlabeni wabo wothando ngasese.
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